From Birthday Bashes to Birthday Blues-II

...Continued

 The Strong bond we shared was YoPy-Be it far or near. The 8 till Infinity! And as I write this, I feel there is a void deep within me, which can never be filled and a wound which can never be healed.They say Time heals everything, but does it really? Time can let us plan the future in a different way but can it really erase the Beautiful past?No it can't, coz no one can, because No one wants to...

Things were really different as the clock stroke twelve this 22 March,2011. It brought back a flood of memories, a strong gush of emotions and it brought back the night of 21st Feb,2011-the day you suddenly chose to say a goodbye to us, and that too without a farewell from our side! 

You left behind umpteen memories and a whole lot of people missing you badly.Every sip of Cold coffee and every bite of Top Ramen curry reminds us of you...The drizzle 'n' the calm weather  reminds us of the day we bunked class just to laze around at Sky..The small font editions of novels reminds us of what a bookworm you were, F.R.I.E.N.D.S reminds us of your addiction for it,The hair straightener brings back flashes of you always jumping for it and straightening your already straight hair'! 

 The tea breaks in the hot weather, the tomato sauce loaded maggie at Night canteen, the love for winter and winter wear, the enormous collection of kurtis, the chocolate cakes, the swiftness you showed at work, the cool as a cucumber attitude and yes of course the keedi walk.. everything reminds us of you...

You may have left us behind, but your memories will never! Indifferent to emotions as you were, you did cry once when you left Pilani (and messaged us' Finally You did see me cry") and Now left us all crying when you went to your abode in heaven.

Deep within, I feel you will be reading this and hope you remember us too as We do.I wish this was just another journey  and that you came back again. They say"umeed pe duniya qayam hai".. I wish there was some umeed.. I wish that You did leave behind some hope for your near and dear ones.

Our Lovely Pragya

Dear Keedi,

We all really miss you! Many many happy Returns of the day.I remember when you graduated from Pilani and we couldn't celebrate your birthday, we posted you a Hand made greeting card, but this time around we are not sure of it's delivery to the far off place you've gone to. But we hope that you are happy as you always were! And we hope that your journey to God was safe'n'sound and that your stay in the other world is as pleasant as it ever could be. We are sure that God is taking good care of our Dear Angel on her birthday, for you deserve the Best.Have a Great one!

Love you.Rest in Peace.
xoxoxo

From Birthday Bashes to Birthday Blues-I

22 March 2004-20XX


In a remote place in Rajasthan...

On this day, every year, as the clock stroke twelve in the midnight, you could hear the eight damsels singing on top of their voices,"We don't know but we've been told,Some one here is getting old! Good news is we sing for thee,Bad news is we sing for free.Haaaappppyy Haaapppyy Birthday To You!" The cake cutting, the birthday bumps,the small surprise on her face(even if it was expected!) the pre-birthday preparations-room decorations and the mundane albeit herculean task of choosing the gift from the very same small pseudo-Archies gift store.And then the dinner treat at the only hangout place(read C'not) followed by a small round of our favorite Ice cream soda and while we sipped in the chilling ice treat someone would always come up with the idea of birthday confessions..usually the someone would be from the singles gang, interested in knowing the confessions of the committed one, but She always managed to get around with these confessions,always giving one-word answers,not letting a single expression belie her words, seldom reflecting a feeling on her face,  and never letting that rosy shade cover her face! That was her! Calm composed and crisp! A long walk, followed by a stop at the Saraswati Temple(at times), in the cool March breeze was what ended those blissful birthday treats...

In a small place like ours we didn't have those grand birthday parties.But there is a beauty associated with the small things in life, an inherent pleasure in each others company and a Strong bond in the closeness we share. 

.....Continued

And I am back....

Long time aah!Feels good to be back in my own space:)Have a lot of things on my mind about which I want to write.Life has changed so much so fast that there's been hardly some time to look back.Some of the things which happened are still not sinking in..They never will I guess! We always tend to accept and rejoice the good things and never want to accept the bad ones.Human mind is too conditioned and biased for the better things in life!If only we learn to accept the worse..
If only we learn to face the hard times
If only we could know the unseen
If only we learn to accept the fragility of life
If only we could time Life and death
If only we could make Life more predictable
If only We could change events,rather than events changing us
If only We could undo all the bad things which happened
If only We could accept that nothing is forever
If only we would not forget that after all there is an End to all of it..
If only we could say it right on her face,"Oh Life,Thou Art a Heartless bitch!
If only...
If Only there was no If..